Monday, May 31, 2004

hmmm...

and BLUEFREAK,ur comments keep me going..do keep posting them..its really loved

it was really encouraging!!!

hey Vardan, thanx a lot for all the encouraging words..it really felt nice..well i was very hesitant to write an online diary..but just like everything else in life,i had decided to give this a try too..its gradually becoming an addiction and hope that before it grips me completely i would be out of it..but so far so good..read your profile and liked the "keep grudges" part of it..well no matter how much one says that they forget and forgive..i dont think they really can..i feel that even they know that they cant...

Distance....

After speaking to two of my most favorite people in the world yesterday, realization dawned on me. One ingredient that makes our life a complete bliss and relationships
Work --- Distance.

They said “ keep your distance ,don’t involve yourself too much into any one’s life, be nice to all and not too close to anyone.” That’s the recipe of happiness.Maybe,I was thinking about the same thing, but couldn’t point a finger at the exact solution. One day and two phone calls later, the solution is crystal clear. It seemed as if it had always existed but I couldn’t see it.

Now I realize that I am going through a strategic inflection point, “it is the time in my life, where my fundamental beliefs are about to change”
Thank you Mr. Andrew Grover for telling us about this concept.

Well at 24,maybe it’s a little too late but I think when they say “Its never too late to learn”, they are damn right. I have finally learnt it, learn it at this age and learnt it the very hard way. And I am sure that this learning will last me a lifelong.

“A lot of things go unquestioned,
A lot of questions go unanswered,
A few words go unsaid,
A few go unheard,
Some dreams are buried,
Some dreams are born dead,
That’s life !!!”


Read this in a Short Message Service – but I know that it will live with me for the longest part of my life…..what a paradox!!!

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Questions...???

As you stand in front of the mirror,you wonder if u like the person you see..

Is the person you see,the same that you always admired?
Is the person staring back at you,say the same things she always did?
Is life taking its toll on her?
Is she gradually losing her own reflection?
Is she still having the dreams of a simple happy life?
Is she gradually losing her identity and fading in a crowd?
Is she still loving herself?
Does she still cry, when someone rebukes her?
Or has she started moulding into a stone?
Does she love someone more than herself?
Does she love anyone at all?
Will she see herself in the mirror again?
The mirror doesn't think so...Does she?

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Thank you ....

Its going to be three years..three years of being in love..three years of bliss...and trust me ..love does finally free you...free u from the pain..
All my life i had wanted to meet someone..someone who would completely floor me..sweep me off my feet and maybe there would be the bells ringing madly and i would know that he is the one..divine intervention..
but it didnot happen that way..he met me..and quitely took my heart away..and before i could realise that..i knew i was in love..and this love was diferent from the ones that i had felt before..It enveloped me in the sense of fulfillment..of contenment..and i am still recouping..
As the days pass by,i feel that i am growing insane..and i feel it is so very diferent..its intoxicating..and am i enjoying it!!
I can just say that.."he completed me"!
and now when i sit back and think about the experiences i have had in my life ..I laugh out loud..
After losing the person who meant the world to me in a freak road accident..i had felt that my world would never be the same again..
Now when i think of that person..i can feel that he is smiling form the heaven above..and i am quite sure he is finally happy..just to let him know up there..i still love u ...but maybe now i am not lonely..i have someone who will take care of me all life long..but i miss u a lot too...

this post is dedicated to DS,a person who has given my life a meaning..

AS the lead actor in the movie "the beautiful mind" says,

"you are my reason to live....you are all my reasons"
its just like that..thank you

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

hmmm...

Hi bluefreak..
well hope u have my reply now..(if not please check the comments section)

BALANCED EQUATION...

I say...
LOVE ALLOWS YOU THREE MISTAKES.......
AFTER THE FIRST ONE..YOU FIND A BETTER PERSON..
AFTER THE SECOND ONE..YOU FIND TRUE LOVE..
BUT AFTER THE THIRD ONE..YOU NEVER LOVE AGAIN!!!


Well..I had made two mistakes,now seem to be in "true" love zone..life is like one happy ride..

Unfortunately had felt that twice before..but woke up to realise that in a relationship,the equation of love is not always balanced..But this time I have finally managed to balance the equation!.Its one hell of a job!! :-)

Mr Putin..listening? You dont fall in love once..Its just that,next time,YOU DONT FIND LOVE , LOVE FINDS YOU !!!

TITLE..WHAT TITLE??

They say Its a dogs world!!
How very true..When i had walked into the MBA class for the first time,my father had said,"MBA is a battlefield,to survive and excel,you have to fight".
For the first few months I made friends,partied and basically had fun..
Litle did i know that gradully,life would change..
We had not shown our "fangs"..Maybe now we have and its a matter of survival..
The rule is that there are no rules..we just have to play on!!..and thats what i am doing..
They again say..Everything is fair in love and war..
I say,everything unfair is fair in love and war!!!
So war is business and business is war..
what am i waiting for..let's get down to business now..

Monday, May 24, 2004

Sometimes...

Hi!!!
its been quite sometime since my last posting..its been one hell of a week..presentations,industrial trips,movies,reflections but not necessarily in that order.
Thursday was entirely spent in Kolar,the gold town..though much of gold isnt left.We had been to BEML,the indian version of "caterpillar"..it is an ISO 9001 company but the sate of affairs- disappointing..Well we had ealier been to toyota kirloskar ltd,this experience was far form that..maybe by the time my great grand kids grow up all the indian companies would practise TQM,5S,JIT,..hope that day comes..:-(
Well after the tiring trip ,we had to prepare for the book review..well the book in question-"only the paranoid survive" by andrew grove,its so very apt for us.The presentation had been made well but executed poorly..thanx to two of my team members who had forgotten the lines..well paranoids didnt survive,,Mr grove listening??
Well the best part about saturday were the compliments that i recvd for wearing a saree..mr putin..i did look nice..u have to see me to belive that ..
And the bestest part abt saturday.."YUVA"..amazing movie..hats off to mani ratnam for making that movie and proving all over again that he's leagues ahead of all the other film makers in India..and the best part of the movie-rani mukherjee..shes mind blowing!!
well sunday started on a bad note..couldnt go for an important fuction..thanx to the downpour..but in the evening braved the rain and waded through the dirty water to chat with 2 people i care abt the mostest in the world..
Sometimes,I feel that maybe love is the mother of all destinies ,
Sometimes,I feel that I am walking on a path which cannot be retraced,
Sometimes,I feel that i am cheating myself to belive things i wouldnt want to,
Sometimes,I feel that had i not looked the way i do,i would have been happierin life,
Sometimes,I feel that had i not looked the way i do,i wouldnt have found "true" love,
Sometimes,I feel that apart form the person i love,maybe i love someone else too,
Sometimes,I feel that is wrong..coz its not right,
Sometimes,I feel ,will the perosn ever know how much i had loved him and how much he had hurt me,
But...thats only sometimes..

well..weekend reflections..
but now its back to work again..
have a great week guys..

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Whatta day!!!

well the day is finally drawing to its end..and i surely thank god for that.Its been one of those days that everyone dreads.
To begin with i woke up late in the morning to find that the college bus had already left!!And after a mad rush when i did finally manage to reach college,the lecture had already begun and my professor bestowed me with a discourse on "how to be punctual".

That wasnt the end of it,in that afternoon we were instructed to do a book review on saturday in front of a panel of distinguished people who would rate our academy on communication skills in the All India B-school ratings..

And to add to the owes,all the servers in our area were down ,which delayed our preparation.

Now that i finally did manage to locate a net cafe with a functioning server,my floppy disk is corrupted...
AAArgh!!!

Life sucks!!!

love u all...

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Something new!!!!

This is my first blog and it was inspired by a very close friend o mine.I had never thought that i would share my journal with someone,leave alone people i donot know.
But as they say in life..Expect the unexpected ....thats what i am doing now..
Hmmm... no introduction yet..The name commoner is to state that I am an average girl with a dream of a happy life..But as days pass by,the dream is turning into a mirage.
In this era of modern methods of communication,i still love the smell and the feel of a letter written to me in a sheet paper.I know that maybe in a crowd i would never be noticed,making the term "commoner" even more apt..but thats life and i am happy that way.
By the way i am doing my post graduation in mangement and right now sitting in our crowded computer lab making my entry in to this new world..and I can see my class mate waiting patiently to use this very computer when i vacate..
As of now..this is Me..the commoner ..
Love to all..and all u guys have a great time ahead..
till then..byee